Here I am. I know, I haven’t been keeping up with my blog very well. It’s been quite awhile, but here I am at 2am when I should be snoozing. I’ve been a bit bogged down lately. Just feeling like there’s too much to do and everyone wants something from me, with not much appreciation being given. I know, that’s life, especially for a wife/mom, but I’m sure I’m not alone. It’s a vicious cycle,, you don’t get something done that you intended to do or wanted to do, then you feel guilty. Then you get sidetracked again, and things start piling up and now you’re really depressed and don’t feel like you can get back on top of things. Then you’ve got dh asking if he has any clean socks and kids saying “mommy can I have this, mommy can you help me with that, mommy, mommy, mommy……… That’s been my life for a long time and it’s really getting old(feeling down about all this, I mean). I haven’t felt like I’ve had anything interesting to write about so I put off blogging for awhile, but then I feel guilty about that! Ahhhh,, make it stop! Well I’m going to really try to just sit down for a few minutes a few times a week and just type what comes to mind. I know there are interesting things that go on, I guess I just feel like noone really wants to hear about my life. But this blogging thing isn’t about what people want to hear,, it’s about giving a glimpse inside my life and writing down my feelings and sharing about the funny and not so funny things my children can do and say and maybe someone might be interested in reading these posts and maybe some of these posts might make someone laugh or cry or give encouragement.
I don’t know, I guess I just need to persevere. An artist that has painters block can’t just give up,, they have to work through it, especially if they depend on thier art for a living,, same goes for writers. And even though I don’t do this to make money, it’s something that I enjoy doing and want to do, so I must carry on!
Well, now I must get to bed, although it is so quiet and peacefull right now, with the exception of my husband snoring..hehe… but that aside, I love this time of night. Kids are asleep, baby is asleep and I don’t have to think about any of them waking up anytime soon.
So goodnight and sweet dreams