Do you ever get an idea to write something, but then hesitate to post it because you got the idea from someone elses blog post? I’m not even talking about posting the exact same thing.You see, I have always had this fear of being a “follower” and people looking at me as such, but at the same time, I have never really tended to be an open “leader” either. I’ve usually just sat on the side lines, afraid to do anything for fear of people looking at me one way or another.
This is how I felt when I read a post by a fellow blogger whom I have been following(oops,hehe) for the past month or so. What she wrote is so true and I can completely identify with her, and I sympathize. I read her posts and think “now why can’t I write like that?”. It’s one of those things where I used to be able to easily think of things to write like, stories, poems, etc…..back when I was in high school! But now I sit here and strain to think of something clever, feeling like Pooh Bear when he’s tapping his head saying “Think, think, think”. And then just before an idea has a chance to pop out, one of my children comes running in to bug me(this really happened, just now, as I type!), or the baby wakes up, or the hubby wants me to help him with something, or get him something, or the phone rings, or the dog barks, or, or, or…….. Anyway, sorry, got a little carried away!
(again, another interruption!) So anyway, this is not what this post was going to be about. I was going to write about the trials of motherhood. AllisonO is a new mom, and she wrote about her failed accomplishments as of late, and as I said, I can totally and completely identify. I have 3 kids now, ages 6,3, and 7 months, and I think about how if I only had one(sorry, another interruption, but I’m back now!)now, I’d so be able to keep my house nice and clean and keep only fresh food in the fridge, and get dinner on time, and be able to do many of the things I do now, with not so much stress. Of course when we had our first child, that was definately Not the case! lol It’s tough being a new mom. So many things to adjust to. You’d think that I’d have some sort of system down by now. I don’t. I still struggle with keeping it together. I still struggle with everything that AllisonO had on her list. (Well whad’ya know, Baby is awake now)
The thing is, though, that I refuse to give up trying, even though there are many days when I throw my hands in the air and say” I give up”. The next day, I’m back in the saddle again.
I think if we are honest with ourselves, we will see the things that we need to change in order to have some order in our lives, even with a house full of kids. It can be done. There are moms out there that have proved it can be done!
My problem is priorities, and staying on task. I really believe that if I were to quit trying on my own and just put God first, He would help me with my chaos! That means studying every day. That means praying every day and not just at meal times. That means, asking Him to help me when I’m feeling overwhelmed, and truly asking, not just a quick “Lord help me” and not really believing He will.
I also have a problem with having too many things going on at once! For some reason, I feel like I always have to try and Do everything! Let’s see, a husband, 3 kids, a candle business, a blog, 2 other websites that need some more work, and let’s add to that homeschooling too while we’re at it! Yet I can’t seem to part with any of it, so I am on a mission to fit everything in, God, family, and homeschooling being at the top of the list of course, and just do a little at a time with the rest. A little here and there is better than not doing anything at all, which is usually what ends up happening, at least with the house work anyway.
As the Flylady would say, “set your timer for 15 minutes! Right now”
Well, maybe I’ll just do that! haha